The Chariot Card: Choices for Neuro Weirdos

A tarot reading for empathic souls navigating a world that dismisses us. When you're told to "smile more" or judged for looking away while speaking - how do you make empowered choices?

Key Medicine:

• The Chariot's black and white sphinxes: constant choice between reaction and response
• Surviving judgment of neurodivergent traits (visualizing while speaking, natural expressions)
• The three-breath technique before engaging criticism
• Building energetic boundaries with light and strength
• Why neuro weirdos deserve to be normalized

"We neuro weirdos really deserve to be normalized - our experience needs to be normalized."

For the empaths, creatives, and beautiful misfits ready to choose their power.

Transcript

(I hope you are not offended. My inner life/brain/experience has always felt extremely 'weirdo'. Thus, this is 'my moniker' that makes sense to me and some friends.)

The Chariot Card: Choices for Neuro-weirdos

Hello, hello. I was having a discussion with some people. And we were drawing some tarot cards, which really hit when we were all sitting together and discussing. It was just so awesome, how it hit for each of us. And we ended up at the end drawing the Chariot card as the final card. And I just want to talk about how we really felt the clarity of that for us as women.

Each of us were talking about, which I have mentioned before, the feeling and the element of being dismissed, and being told we are too much. "Oh, you should smile more." That's a big one. Anybody out there have that one? Don't you just hate that? I feel it's because I am a white person that that happens. It's like we have this resting bitch face that is just - I'm so deep in thought, and I'm thinking about other things or I'm close to meditation or, you know, I'm having an experience within my whole being, and then someone spouts out when I, you know, they're like, if I was at work, they're like, "You should smile more," you know, and just crack me out of it. And it was like, that is so rude, and just dismissive. Dismissive is this thing - so dismissive.

And another thing we were discussing was - so I visualize, I visualize. So when I speak, I am seeking the clarity in space of what I'm expressing, seeing, and pulling into my experience. So I have to look away to visualize that when I'm talking to someone. So if I'm looking at someone's eyes, it's usually to listen. And sometimes I can speak looking into someone's eyes, but most often I'm not. And for so long, people would, you know, they would go over to try to see what I was looking at, like, try to catch my eyes, or turn around and look at what I was looking at, or all these types of experiences in a dismissive way.

So anyway, we're just talking about dismissiveness towards those of us who have the non-neurotypical - neurotypical, non-neurotypical, opposite, which is often what I do - say something that I didn't mean to say it, I meant to say it, right? So neurotypical, non-neurotypical, whatever.

So, the Chariot card. I don't use this deck very much. It's the traditional deck, the Rider-Waite. But I really do like this Chariot card in the sense where we each have - we're moving forward. We can't help but be moving forward. We're breathing. And our breath inhabits, and it's our life force. We're moving. We're alive, we're awake. We're embodied in this life and we're moving.

So in every second and every moment, we always have a choice. And being in the state of consistent contrast, like black and white, or left and right, or yes or no, or feeling the deeper knowing within us - how to move forward. And what I want all of us to be more conscious of and aware - especially those of us who have been dismissed and who have this non-neurotypical experience of being in life, is to take the time to feel, to breathe, to bring the presence in.

I can't think of all the millions of times - well, this person we were talking with as well, they're younger than I am, but same thing - is that when you're also incredibly empathic, you feel so much from people and the judgment can come in like a ton of bricks upon your being. 

It comes so fast and so hard that we feel we need to defend ourselves. And so right away, we come out like as a defensive creature, which makes everyone else dismiss us even more. "Oh, look at them. They're just off the cuff." "Too much." That's another one. "Oh, they're too much, too much energy, too much of everything." 

Because our nervous system is being attacked, just attacked, sympathetic nervous system, just attack.

So all of that attacking creates such an unstable environment for us to be nourished, and we deserve to be nourished in life. We deserve to nourish ourselves. We deserve to not be around people if we haven't learned to hold ourselves with a full energetic boundary, of light and power and strength, and unconditional love.

But more, it's like having the choices in every moment can be really hard to choose. 

And yet if we just even allow ourselves three breaths, when you're in a quick motion, something's happening fast and you're not sure what to do with engaging with humans, or even in a situation, you know, out and about and you're doing certain things and you feel something arriving, like a truck is arriving, like energetically, like, "Oh," it's just coming back to that place of your body.

So the Chariot, it has a black sphinx and a white sphinx in front of it, and they are on like this concrete, like this gray chariot. And it's stable, it's in stasis, so there isn't - well, there are wheels. Actually, there are wheels, but the sphinxes are lying on the ground, right? So it's more of like a metaphoric movement, to my interpretation, of how we are making our choices in the time, in the moment before we make our movement. And it also has these castles in the back, and so it does signify when we're out and about in the world, like, how are we relating and how is the world relating to us? Because more of us Neuro-weirdos really deserve to be normalized in the sense where our experience needs to be normalized.

So those who speak the loudest, their voices are heard, right?

Isn't that a terrible kind of truth? And I'm glad in a way that social media has allowed so many different experiences to rise up and be normalized. So that's my wish is in my lifetime that all of these creative ways of living and being in the world becomes so much more accepted and normalized and talked about.

So, when you feel something arriving, just take a really long breath. 

Close your eyes, too. 

Don't look. Just breathe. 

Before you speak, before you even have to speak. And I was saying that often, if you end up taking three breaths, the people who are expecting something of you, are coming at you, they'll usually just lose interest anyway. 

Unless you're building a relationship with them. Notice how they just don't want to engage. And you'll know then, "Oh, you know what? I will conserve so that I can maintain and build my nourishment," because that is really the most important thing for you to get to do.